This is actually me and my boyfriends song. It’s weird, but it makes you feel so many emotions at once. It’s bittersweet and reflective. It reminds me of first love, romance, and like you said, first sexual experiences.
Honestly, music just has too many meanings. I have regarded this song based purely on it’s memory for me of a friend from the past and you, wiht your boyfriend. Music is so many languages I guess.
And I think of what I want the most. It’s simple. It’s you.
But here I am loathing myself, for something I really shouldn’t. I hardly know anything about you, and yet you are up there in my mind twirling around with an image of me either being held by you, or me holding you. One or the other, it suits me just fine.
I don’t get, I don’t understand how I am so easily captivated, how I’m still here in this place surrounded by the questions of ‘why’? Why have I invested so much into something that garners almost nothing. Am I believing in something real? Or have I fabricated this story so much so that it’s too late to refuse it.
I’ve painted this picture on you, like you are a canvas. I know I shouldn’t, but I see some perfection with you. The quiet and somber nature, mysterious embodiment but a delightful presence. You’d still be perfect even in the silent moments with you. Grow with you, grow together, and experience the mistakes that come with loving.
Love is an obsession. That is all. Frankly, I am obsessed with you. But I’m trying to reel away, but in a cycle I return back to where I started.
Then I realise something else. If there is nothing of who I am for you, what makes you possibly believe that I can be of something of worth for you. I need to be somebody to be for somebody. As my life slowly comes together, bolstered by luck and hard work I slowly, slowly realise that there is humour in this. In distracitng myself, working on myself, I walk away from you yet show you something of me that I hope you recognise.
It’s been six months, half a year, too long.
If you are for me, it’ll be the best thing ever. If you aren’t for me, we’ll always be with someone better.
The one lesson I need to remember: you only deserve the best, they will notice it and opportunities will be adhered to.
Rihanna, Chris Brown and current Usher is not, not, not, not, hip-hop nor R’n’b. Yes these examples except Rihanna are of African-American heritage but just because they sing on a song does not necessarily make it r’n’b nor hip-hop.
The Hip-hop culture, yes culture, came from a struggle of repression from African Americans and allowed them something viable to come together as a group to melt away their trouble. The same style now that instead of bringing people together breaks people apart.
A complete travesty. Hip-hop deserves better.
Not the electronica onslaught of auto-tuned vocals and real issues.
My brother finally has a FB, not that I have him added but this means it’s easier for people to now be shown my brother, and get shocked accordingly. Trust, the only reason he got a FB was because of a ‘certain girl’ that he says he isn’t seeing and that they are just friends.
I love how advertisements for electronic commodities seem to now include a lot of Asians. It’s like they have finally realised how the Asian niche market is important for these industry. They took their time.
sylph - a graceful and slender young woman. euphony - a bearable or agreeable sound. quixotic - extremely romantic and chivalrous. pareidolia - a psychological phenomenon, wherein a person has the notion of seeing faces of people in clouds, hearing hidden messages and other such unusual feelings. phalerate - decorated; made beautiful. betwixt - between. crepuscule - twilight; dusk. epicaricacy - taking pleasure in other’s misfortune; schadenfreud. nepenthe - something, such as a drink or a drug, capable of making one forget suffering. exosculate - to kiss fervently or heartily. lacuna - a blank space or missing part. euonym - a pleasing or beautiful name. quarender - a dark red apple. halcyon - calm and peaceful; tranquil. Prosperous; gold. ubiquitous - being or seeming to be everywhere at the same time; omnipresent. soigné - showing sophisticated elegance; fashionable. Well-groomed; polished.
“Can’t knock ‘em out
You can’t walk away
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say
Just get out of my face
Just leave me alone
And no, you can’t have my number
‘Cause I lost my phone”—Knock ‘Em Out - Lily Allen
ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN A RELATIONSHIP AND IF SO HOW LONG?
HOW MANY PPL HAVE YOU BEEN INTIMATE WITH IN 2008? I believe five?
DO YOU SEE A POSSIBLE FUTURE WITH THE PERSON YOU ARE INVOLVED WITH? WHAT HAPPENED TO QUESTIONS MOVING ON TO OTHER THINGS AND OTHER SHIT
WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE CHILDREN WITH THIS PERSON? Imaginary kids? Even they don’t deserve me as a father!
HOW WOULD YOU RATE YOUR SEX LIFE ON A SCALE OF 1-10? Not happening currently, so you can take the guess for me!
HOW COULD YOUR BF/GF IMPROVE IN THE BEDROOM? If I had one, by giving me space to not fall off the bed!
AGGRESSIVE OR PASSIVE? Do you really want me to sing some of “The Naked & Famous” songs?
WHAT IS YOUR FETISH? Public Entity!
WHAT FANTASY WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE OUT WITH YOUR CURRENT BF/GF? More irrelevant questions that condones angry behaviour from me
ORAL SEX…BETTER TO GIVE OR RECEIVE? I’m a giving person
HOW MANY TIMES A WEEK DO YOU HAVE SEX? MORE THAN YOU! YOU VAGNIATIS!
WOULD YOU LIKE TO IMPROVE ON SOME ASPECT OF YOUR SEX LIFE? *GRUMBLES*
HOW MANY PPL ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST HAVE YOU HAD SEX WITH? *Blank stare*
OH ITLL BE AN ORGY ALRIGHT!
IF GIVEN THE CHANCE HOW MANY PPL ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST WOULD YOU HAVE SEX WITH? Meh, I prefer not to burn bridges with awkward sexual advances when it comes to the people I grew up with/am going to school with.
GROUP SEX OR ONE ON ONE? Several times, bother!
WATCHING OR BEING WATCHED? Not watched, simply because that is awkward
“She’s electric, she’s the current running through my veins
She’s a siren, hearing voices that I can’t explain
Now I should be thinking it over
Instead I’m calling her over
Now she’s here and she won’t go quietly”—Won’t Go Quietly - Example